Ok I think my blog posts are kinda boring........haha!
But I seriously feel like blogging today. I really feel much happier inside and enlightened within. Sense of "I don't care what people think anymore" is slowly gaining its roots within me which I feel is kinda good, cos then I don't fall into pleasing people all the time.
Really feeling the enthusiasm to blog more frequently now. But heck I can only do it after office hours which I feel is kinda tight cos I only probably have about an hour before le fiance calls and ruins the whole mood of blogging. I have to talk and entertain him mar...haha!
I feel a need of space to breath sometimes......A place I feel belong.......
And sometimes I feel the blog is where I can pour my heart out.........without fear of hurting another.....
Monday, July 30, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
The Blogging Feeling I have....
I was reading through one of the blog I use to follow, and one of her post made me ponder a lot. She said she use to love to blog about her life, documenting her thoughts, the dramas she faced, her love, her believes,.....just everything about who she was and what she is. Ultimately at that point of time she wanted to well, I guess express herself and now she has found no motivation to blog anymore. And whenever she opens blogger, nothing seems to motivate her to write.
Honestly, I somehow felt that way at one point of time.
You feel lost as to the purpose of why you are blogging, or in the first place, why are you here? You start asking questions like "who's gonna read my shit"...... or ......"why should I tell people about my life?"..... and also you began to think "Gosh the whole world is going to read about my life, and start talking about it!!!"....and what I really hate was people coming up to me and talking about what I write and laughing about it too.
Ok, obviously the pessimistic side of me was stronger than I think it is........
But still, I loved reading blogs and people's life journals intrigue me to a point it still lingers it's pulling power to make me write again. But I was in a phase in life, where nothing in life excites me (except my boyfriend excites me, lol sounds so wrong) and I felt that my life was literally dull, mundane, and lifeless which to me, was not blog worthy. I didn't think anyone would like to read my blog. Furthermore when I was bloging last time, things were kind of exaggerated to look fun but in reality, it's really just, maybe, mehhh......
But obviously life takes a change, and you find youself in a whole new dimension and environment, and somehow life seems to be interesting again. You begin to ponder a lot, recap what you have done, re-evaluate and just, you know, want to express it. And make a change. And that's when you know, you are blog worthy.
To tell the truth, my life has seriously took a 180 degree turn, and in fact it's so drastic and sudden that never in your life would you imagine to be facing it. It's a mixes of happiness, and sadness, and this whole topsy turvy feeling in reality has made me change to be different, in which I hope would be a good change.
What's happening to me is legit for a whole post of its own. And perhaps I might jot it down not just merely for viewing pleasures, but for me to remember all the things that have happened in my life. So that when the time comes for me to reflect, I can tell my life's history through this blog.
And yes, the last post I was feeling dark and gloomy. Well, dark times, unfortunate events......
But now it's a mixed feeling.....and I am writing with neutral, mixed, assorted feelings inside in which explains the change of the background of the blog again....
It's white,....neutral......like a white canvas to paint on anything.
-feelings-
Honestly, I somehow felt that way at one point of time.
You feel lost as to the purpose of why you are blogging, or in the first place, why are you here? You start asking questions like "who's gonna read my shit"...... or ......"why should I tell people about my life?"..... and also you began to think "Gosh the whole world is going to read about my life, and start talking about it!!!"....and what I really hate was people coming up to me and talking about what I write and laughing about it too.
Ok, obviously the pessimistic side of me was stronger than I think it is........
But still, I loved reading blogs and people's life journals intrigue me to a point it still lingers it's pulling power to make me write again. But I was in a phase in life, where nothing in life excites me (except my boyfriend excites me, lol sounds so wrong) and I felt that my life was literally dull, mundane, and lifeless which to me, was not blog worthy. I didn't think anyone would like to read my blog. Furthermore when I was bloging last time, things were kind of exaggerated to look fun but in reality, it's really just, maybe, mehhh......
But obviously life takes a change, and you find youself in a whole new dimension and environment, and somehow life seems to be interesting again. You begin to ponder a lot, recap what you have done, re-evaluate and just, you know, want to express it. And make a change. And that's when you know, you are blog worthy.
To tell the truth, my life has seriously took a 180 degree turn, and in fact it's so drastic and sudden that never in your life would you imagine to be facing it. It's a mixes of happiness, and sadness, and this whole topsy turvy feeling in reality has made me change to be different, in which I hope would be a good change.
What's happening to me is legit for a whole post of its own. And perhaps I might jot it down not just merely for viewing pleasures, but for me to remember all the things that have happened in my life. So that when the time comes for me to reflect, I can tell my life's history through this blog.
(a journey on a lonely lane)
And yes, the last post I was feeling dark and gloomy. Well, dark times, unfortunate events......
But now it's a mixed feeling.....and I am writing with neutral, mixed, assorted feelings inside in which explains the change of the background of the blog again....
It's white,....neutral......like a white canvas to paint on anything.
-feelings-
Sunday, July 1, 2012
The New Me.....
Just revamped my blog.....really wanted it to look dark and gloomy to really give the vibes of what I am feeling right now.
Things change....
Shit happens.....
But never in my life I would have imagined that my life would take such a drastic change. It's like a nightmare, that came unexpected in your sleep......
It taunts you.....
It can also kill you.....
You look around, and you see yourself falling, deeper and deeper, and just when you were about to hit the ground really hard.....
You're wide awake.......
And though you wished it was really just a nightmare........
It really feels like you are supposed to live your nightmare........
A dream, which will never be awaken...........
-lifeless-
Things change....
Shit happens.....
But never in my life I would have imagined that my life would take such a drastic change. It's like a nightmare, that came unexpected in your sleep......
It taunts you.....
It can also kill you.....
You look around, and you see yourself falling, deeper and deeper, and just when you were about to hit the ground really hard.....
You're wide awake.......
And though you wished it was really just a nightmare........
It really feels like you are supposed to live your nightmare........
A dream, which will never be awaken...........
-lifeless-
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