Gosh, it's already 2013 and what the hell have I been doing to this blog? Nothing....lol.
Honestly I have been pondering for the longest time on whether I really want to start blogging and if I do, what kinda blog should it be? What is the purpose of a blog to me? To rant out my frustration? To tell the whole world about my life? To share of all the good things that I have?
Nay, those are not what appeals to me.
See many a times blog post of wonderful things happening may or may not portray the true side of the situation. It can be bombasted to become the most fantastic day of your life but in actuality it wasn't that great after all. Yeah sure, some of it are true, but I bet 70% of the time it's just for the sake of blogging.
So why am I taking about it? Just because.....it's my blog.....lol
Ok so I have thought about it so long, like should I write about my life? Do I want everyone to talk about my life? Then do I want to make it famous? (okla, a bit self praise here)....and really, even if I write who the hell is going to read???? Myself???? Which most probably be the case.....zzzz
Yes I am pessimistic, confused nut who doesn't really know what she wants in life.
Ok anyway I realized that in my life, I have never slowed down to be thankful for all the good things that I have. I rant almost everyday all of my life but rarely do I go 'oh, I am so grateful that this is happening to me'.
I figured, if this is my blog, and only I would most probably be my greatest fan and reader, then I should document stuff that is good for me, that would edify me, that would make me feel better whenever I read back on my blog.
So yes, I want to make this a gratitude blog. To be grateful for everything that I have. To slow down and think what I should be thankful for. And starting tomorrow, it will be a new journey for this blog of mine.
I want to discipline myself. I want to be thankful for what I have. I want to complain less, and learn to live life to my fullest.
Throwing away all angst, sorrow, frustration, and displeasure.....
To a whole new dimension on gratefulness, happiness, and thankfulness.....
For all that God has given me.....
-cheers to a new start-
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Monday, July 30, 2012
Neutral, bending towards happy
Ok I think my blog posts are kinda boring........haha!
But I seriously feel like blogging today. I really feel much happier inside and enlightened within. Sense of "I don't care what people think anymore" is slowly gaining its roots within me which I feel is kinda good, cos then I don't fall into pleasing people all the time.
Really feeling the enthusiasm to blog more frequently now. But heck I can only do it after office hours which I feel is kinda tight cos I only probably have about an hour before le fiance calls and ruins the whole mood of blogging. I have to talk and entertain him mar...haha!
I feel a need of space to breath sometimes......A place I feel belong.......
And sometimes I feel the blog is where I can pour my heart out.........without fear of hurting another.....
But I seriously feel like blogging today. I really feel much happier inside and enlightened within. Sense of "I don't care what people think anymore" is slowly gaining its roots within me which I feel is kinda good, cos then I don't fall into pleasing people all the time.
Really feeling the enthusiasm to blog more frequently now. But heck I can only do it after office hours which I feel is kinda tight cos I only probably have about an hour before le fiance calls and ruins the whole mood of blogging. I have to talk and entertain him mar...haha!
I feel a need of space to breath sometimes......A place I feel belong.......
And sometimes I feel the blog is where I can pour my heart out.........without fear of hurting another.....
Thursday, July 26, 2012
The Blogging Feeling I have....
I was reading through one of the blog I use to follow, and one of her post made me ponder a lot. She said she use to love to blog about her life, documenting her thoughts, the dramas she faced, her love, her believes,.....just everything about who she was and what she is. Ultimately at that point of time she wanted to well, I guess express herself and now she has found no motivation to blog anymore. And whenever she opens blogger, nothing seems to motivate her to write.
Honestly, I somehow felt that way at one point of time.
You feel lost as to the purpose of why you are blogging, or in the first place, why are you here? You start asking questions like "who's gonna read my shit"...... or ......"why should I tell people about my life?"..... and also you began to think "Gosh the whole world is going to read about my life, and start talking about it!!!"....and what I really hate was people coming up to me and talking about what I write and laughing about it too.
Ok, obviously the pessimistic side of me was stronger than I think it is........
But still, I loved reading blogs and people's life journals intrigue me to a point it still lingers it's pulling power to make me write again. But I was in a phase in life, where nothing in life excites me (except my boyfriend excites me, lol sounds so wrong) and I felt that my life was literally dull, mundane, and lifeless which to me, was not blog worthy. I didn't think anyone would like to read my blog. Furthermore when I was bloging last time, things were kind of exaggerated to look fun but in reality, it's really just, maybe, mehhh......
But obviously life takes a change, and you find youself in a whole new dimension and environment, and somehow life seems to be interesting again. You begin to ponder a lot, recap what you have done, re-evaluate and just, you know, want to express it. And make a change. And that's when you know, you are blog worthy.
To tell the truth, my life has seriously took a 180 degree turn, and in fact it's so drastic and sudden that never in your life would you imagine to be facing it. It's a mixes of happiness, and sadness, and this whole topsy turvy feeling in reality has made me change to be different, in which I hope would be a good change.
What's happening to me is legit for a whole post of its own. And perhaps I might jot it down not just merely for viewing pleasures, but for me to remember all the things that have happened in my life. So that when the time comes for me to reflect, I can tell my life's history through this blog.
And yes, the last post I was feeling dark and gloomy. Well, dark times, unfortunate events......
But now it's a mixed feeling.....and I am writing with neutral, mixed, assorted feelings inside in which explains the change of the background of the blog again....
It's white,....neutral......like a white canvas to paint on anything.
-feelings-
Honestly, I somehow felt that way at one point of time.
You feel lost as to the purpose of why you are blogging, or in the first place, why are you here? You start asking questions like "who's gonna read my shit"...... or ......"why should I tell people about my life?"..... and also you began to think "Gosh the whole world is going to read about my life, and start talking about it!!!"....and what I really hate was people coming up to me and talking about what I write and laughing about it too.
Ok, obviously the pessimistic side of me was stronger than I think it is........
But still, I loved reading blogs and people's life journals intrigue me to a point it still lingers it's pulling power to make me write again. But I was in a phase in life, where nothing in life excites me (except my boyfriend excites me, lol sounds so wrong) and I felt that my life was literally dull, mundane, and lifeless which to me, was not blog worthy. I didn't think anyone would like to read my blog. Furthermore when I was bloging last time, things were kind of exaggerated to look fun but in reality, it's really just, maybe, mehhh......
But obviously life takes a change, and you find youself in a whole new dimension and environment, and somehow life seems to be interesting again. You begin to ponder a lot, recap what you have done, re-evaluate and just, you know, want to express it. And make a change. And that's when you know, you are blog worthy.
To tell the truth, my life has seriously took a 180 degree turn, and in fact it's so drastic and sudden that never in your life would you imagine to be facing it. It's a mixes of happiness, and sadness, and this whole topsy turvy feeling in reality has made me change to be different, in which I hope would be a good change.
What's happening to me is legit for a whole post of its own. And perhaps I might jot it down not just merely for viewing pleasures, but for me to remember all the things that have happened in my life. So that when the time comes for me to reflect, I can tell my life's history through this blog.
(a journey on a lonely lane)
And yes, the last post I was feeling dark and gloomy. Well, dark times, unfortunate events......
But now it's a mixed feeling.....and I am writing with neutral, mixed, assorted feelings inside in which explains the change of the background of the blog again....
It's white,....neutral......like a white canvas to paint on anything.
-feelings-
Sunday, July 1, 2012
The New Me.....
Just revamped my blog.....really wanted it to look dark and gloomy to really give the vibes of what I am feeling right now.
Things change....
Shit happens.....
But never in my life I would have imagined that my life would take such a drastic change. It's like a nightmare, that came unexpected in your sleep......
It taunts you.....
It can also kill you.....
You look around, and you see yourself falling, deeper and deeper, and just when you were about to hit the ground really hard.....
You're wide awake.......
And though you wished it was really just a nightmare........
It really feels like you are supposed to live your nightmare........
A dream, which will never be awaken...........
-lifeless-
Things change....
Shit happens.....
But never in my life I would have imagined that my life would take such a drastic change. It's like a nightmare, that came unexpected in your sleep......
It taunts you.....
It can also kill you.....
You look around, and you see yourself falling, deeper and deeper, and just when you were about to hit the ground really hard.....
You're wide awake.......
And though you wished it was really just a nightmare........
It really feels like you are supposed to live your nightmare........
A dream, which will never be awaken...........
-lifeless-
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Friends or no friend?
Sigh......why some people are just so selfish??
I don't know what is the main reason behind by not being cooperative but still, it isn't too much to ask seeing we only ask a few times right??
Today, I have been counselling non-stop. One after another came in, I entertained them and went on two campus tour today. Almost everytime I plonk myself onto the chair someone walks in and ram straight to my table and say, "I would like to enquire about a course".......every. single. time.
So okie, its my job, totally understand, furthermore being in front desk is like what the heck, what can I do right?
So after like 4pm+ I am exhausted already. I don't feel like counselling another person anymore thus requested for someone else to do it. Poor Nini has to listen to 2 person's excuses and me, upon hearing it, just ticks me off.
One said, "I'm busy now. Doing Orientation stuff. I don't want to counsel" (WTH, its next mon la orientation! Counsel awhile also cannot meh???)
Another one said, "So?"......just one word, SO.....SO????? SO HELP LA SO WAT?!
HAIHhhhhhhhh.......sometimes I really feel like asking them to sit at front desk and see how it feels like to be in our shoes. So because we are sitting in front desk we have to do everything?! When one went to school fair in sungai long which I feel there is not much enquiry; and another went the whole day to imigration even though he has nothing to do with it.
Fantastic.......great job........I...am....greatly...pleased.....
******************
On another note, got a bit bu shi huan towards TBF this morning.
Yeah, probably I am over re-acting but then well, maybe period coming adi la =P
So TBF reached office early today, and we were on the phone when I was still on the way to work and then the line suddenly got cut off. So thinking he would call me back I waited. After some time I tot I should call him and when he picked up the phone, he said he was talking to his colleague. I thought eh, reach office also never say anything.
So never mind la, let it go, then he said have to go adi, or just qucikly say bye and then put down the phone. So I was thinking, why the hurry? And everyday I reach office first thing I do is to pick up his phone and sit in office to answer his call for 30 mins. Everyday. And today he reach office only so fast must put down the phone? You know I have not reach office yet ma.
So alot of stupid stuff started to creep into my mind. Is it because he not comfortable to talk since colleagues there, or dunno what boss thinking? If that is the case then this is what I think everyday when I pick up his call in the morning.
So I decided to tell him that henceforth no calling in the morning. I mean my previous manager mentioned to me that it was too often and I do get stares from my bosses when I am on the phone.
So there. I did it. Because I am not happy. Thinking if I was being irrational, plain sensative, stupid,.....well watever. It's done already. Just was not happy everytime I have to sit one corner hiding everyday when I reach office to talk to him for 30 mins but when he reach office adi he says bye and that's it.
Ok TBF might be pissed reading this but I have no intentions to argue, just stating my point of view. It's me blog you see? =P
Still love you dear, just.....bu shi huan lor!!
-not happy-
I don't know what is the main reason behind by not being cooperative but still, it isn't too much to ask seeing we only ask a few times right??
Today, I have been counselling non-stop. One after another came in, I entertained them and went on two campus tour today. Almost everytime I plonk myself onto the chair someone walks in and ram straight to my table and say, "I would like to enquire about a course".......every. single. time.
So okie, its my job, totally understand, furthermore being in front desk is like what the heck, what can I do right?
So after like 4pm+ I am exhausted already. I don't feel like counselling another person anymore thus requested for someone else to do it. Poor Nini has to listen to 2 person's excuses and me, upon hearing it, just ticks me off.
One said, "I'm busy now. Doing Orientation stuff. I don't want to counsel" (WTH, its next mon la orientation! Counsel awhile also cannot meh???)
Another one said, "So?"......just one word, SO.....SO????? SO HELP LA SO WAT?!
HAIHhhhhhhhh.......sometimes I really feel like asking them to sit at front desk and see how it feels like to be in our shoes. So because we are sitting in front desk we have to do everything?! When one went to school fair in sungai long which I feel there is not much enquiry; and another went the whole day to imigration even though he has nothing to do with it.
Fantastic.......great job........I...am....greatly...pleased.....
******************
On another note, got a bit bu shi huan towards TBF this morning.
Yeah, probably I am over re-acting but then well, maybe period coming adi la =P
So TBF reached office early today, and we were on the phone when I was still on the way to work and then the line suddenly got cut off. So thinking he would call me back I waited. After some time I tot I should call him and when he picked up the phone, he said he was talking to his colleague. I thought eh, reach office also never say anything.
So never mind la, let it go, then he said have to go adi, or just qucikly say bye and then put down the phone. So I was thinking, why the hurry? And everyday I reach office first thing I do is to pick up his phone and sit in office to answer his call for 30 mins. Everyday. And today he reach office only so fast must put down the phone? You know I have not reach office yet ma.
So alot of stupid stuff started to creep into my mind. Is it because he not comfortable to talk since colleagues there, or dunno what boss thinking? If that is the case then this is what I think everyday when I pick up his call in the morning.
So I decided to tell him that henceforth no calling in the morning. I mean my previous manager mentioned to me that it was too often and I do get stares from my bosses when I am on the phone.
So there. I did it. Because I am not happy. Thinking if I was being irrational, plain sensative, stupid,.....well watever. It's done already. Just was not happy everytime I have to sit one corner hiding everyday when I reach office to talk to him for 30 mins but when he reach office adi he says bye and that's it.
Ok TBF might be pissed reading this but I have no intentions to argue, just stating my point of view. It's me blog you see? =P
Still love you dear, just.....bu shi huan lor!!
-not happy-
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Nothing much
Aih, another day has just passed.....seems so mundane, rigid, boring......
I need to stop talking about that already.
Today I would say is a pretty productive day at work, being that I actually had a few casses to follow up with (actually only 2), counselled a parent, pick up endless phone calls because the receptionist wasn't around, pack for school fair tomorrow........
Actually, it's almost pretty the same everyday =.=
Well, had a yum cha session with my friend yesterday. Apparently her pay of RM2.5k is not even enough for her, and I am thinking shit, mine's even lower? Well current pay is safely kinda comfortable FOR NOW, but then I don't think I can survive long with everything escalating in prices!!
I want more pay =(
But then I was just telling sherine, the accountant about adjustment salary in year end? She said whatever I am getting is good already, because last time her increment is only RM10. And I was like WHAT?! That's just labour abuse!! Crazy management!
So now the questions is.....be happy with what I have?
Shuddup and live with life?
I need to learn lotsa patience ler.....haih......
-bummer-
I need to stop talking about that already.
Today I would say is a pretty productive day at work, being that I actually had a few casses to follow up with (actually only 2), counselled a parent, pick up endless phone calls because the receptionist wasn't around, pack for school fair tomorrow........
Actually, it's almost pretty the same everyday =.=
Well, had a yum cha session with my friend yesterday. Apparently her pay of RM2.5k is not even enough for her, and I am thinking shit, mine's even lower? Well current pay is safely kinda comfortable FOR NOW, but then I don't think I can survive long with everything escalating in prices!!
I want more pay =(
But then I was just telling sherine, the accountant about adjustment salary in year end? She said whatever I am getting is good already, because last time her increment is only RM10. And I was like WHAT?! That's just labour abuse!! Crazy management!
So now the questions is.....be happy with what I have?
Shuddup and live with life?
I need to learn lotsa patience ler.....haih......
-bummer-
Saturday, June 18, 2011
It's been two weeks since I blogged??
Bummer, and my resolution for that moment of time was to blog more often. Kakaka......that's what all blogger's say!
Oh btw, almost forgot the blog password. I am getting phobia of forgetting the password for this blog......xD!!!
TBF...(no dear, its not Taylor's Business Degree!!! =_=) stop thinking about taylor's ler! Cis....=P
Aish, digress......anyway!
Today TBF made an effort to take me out for supper......but turns out he is grumpy and uncomfortable, and reason being is because he is dirty, and tired. Meh, the only time he is fresh and energetic is when he just takes his shower. But by then, I am half dead with sleepiness coz he takes shower and shit quite long one leh.......no offence dear =P
Well, what's a girlfriend to do? Tolerate loh......xD I think I like to make big fuss over small things, and annoy people. Hmm......I think I need more humbleness!!! Or just shuddup? kakaka.......
Okla, sleepy and ranting nonsense already. maybe will blog some other day when mind is fresher.
-ciaoz-
Oh btw, almost forgot the blog password. I am getting phobia of forgetting the password for this blog......xD!!!
TBF...(no dear, its not Taylor's Business Degree!!! =_=) stop thinking about taylor's ler! Cis....=P
Aish, digress......anyway!
Today TBF made an effort to take me out for supper......but turns out he is grumpy and uncomfortable, and reason being is because he is dirty, and tired. Meh, the only time he is fresh and energetic is when he just takes his shower. But by then, I am half dead with sleepiness coz he takes shower and shit quite long one leh.......no offence dear =P
Well, what's a girlfriend to do? Tolerate loh......xD I think I like to make big fuss over small things, and annoy people. Hmm......I think I need more humbleness!!! Or just shuddup? kakaka.......
Okla, sleepy and ranting nonsense already. maybe will blog some other day when mind is fresher.
-ciaoz-
Friday, June 3, 2011
Wedding bells are ringing again....
Gosh, I think I just caught the wedding vibes again......
Actually I am not really such in a hurry to get married? I am only concerned about my age when I marry. Haha! I mean, well I don't want to be an old mama you see. I am picturing myself if I get married at the age of maybe 30+? Then what, by the time my kids get to college I will be a grandma already!!
Then when my son/daughter wants to get married, we will meet the other side's parents of course then can you imagine if they ask, "Are these your grandparents?".....Oh the horror!!!!
Sigh, and I am getting old already!!
Speaking of weddings, I actually was quite laid back, chilling, not actually wanting to bother about marriage yet (cuz no money mah...) and then all of a sudden when I was talking to a student that probably I might get married in another 2 years time.......and it struck me when he said, "There are a lot of preparations and the time is not that short you know"......
And I was like, "Damn it! Correct wor!!".......in my mind la of course.
So I told the Boyfriend about this matter......
Ok, b4 going into the topic let me just shorten his nickname (its too long!) to TBF. So means TBF = The BoyFriend......
Right back to story........
So I told TBF and I said look, I am not putting any pressure but at what age are we getting married again? If its age 2*+ (No, not revelaling age here xD!!!) then we need to prepare a year ahead!
And you know what TBF said? "Aiyah, no need one la, very easy to plan only. No need to so stress one! Few months can kautim planning already!"
So ok, I thought it should be fine la. Sounds pretty easy. Furthermore TBF said his friend did the whole planning and he didn't see him stressed at all. It was peasy weasy......so easy. With that assurance it did sound comforting until I asked my married colleague......
THEY NEEDED TO BOOK THE HOTEL 1 YEAR IN ADVANCE........
And I am like what the hell?? So hard to get dates one meh?? And you know what she said? She said LUCKILY she got saturday, otherwise she would have only gotten FRIDAY.
Seriously!!!!!! I gotta run and tell him this larh!! How HOW?!!! What if we can't get the date we want and unfortunately we get married at the age of 30?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUN WANTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-problem-
Actually I am not really such in a hurry to get married? I am only concerned about my age when I marry. Haha! I mean, well I don't want to be an old mama you see. I am picturing myself if I get married at the age of maybe 30+? Then what, by the time my kids get to college I will be a grandma already!!
Then when my son/daughter wants to get married, we will meet the other side's parents of course then can you imagine if they ask, "Are these your grandparents?".....Oh the horror!!!!
Sigh, and I am getting old already!!
Speaking of weddings, I actually was quite laid back, chilling, not actually wanting to bother about marriage yet (cuz no money mah...) and then all of a sudden when I was talking to a student that probably I might get married in another 2 years time.......and it struck me when he said, "There are a lot of preparations and the time is not that short you know"......
And I was like, "Damn it! Correct wor!!".......in my mind la of course.
So I told the Boyfriend about this matter......
Ok, b4 going into the topic let me just shorten his nickname (its too long!) to TBF. So means TBF = The BoyFriend......
Right back to story........
So I told TBF and I said look, I am not putting any pressure but at what age are we getting married again? If its age 2*+ (No, not revelaling age here xD!!!) then we need to prepare a year ahead!
And you know what TBF said? "Aiyah, no need one la, very easy to plan only. No need to so stress one! Few months can kautim planning already!"
So ok, I thought it should be fine la. Sounds pretty easy. Furthermore TBF said his friend did the whole planning and he didn't see him stressed at all. It was peasy weasy......so easy. With that assurance it did sound comforting until I asked my married colleague......
THEY NEEDED TO BOOK THE HOTEL 1 YEAR IN ADVANCE........
And I am like what the hell?? So hard to get dates one meh?? And you know what she said? She said LUCKILY she got saturday, otherwise she would have only gotten FRIDAY.
Seriously!!!!!! I gotta run and tell him this larh!! How HOW?!!! What if we can't get the date we want and unfortunately we get married at the age of 30?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUN WANTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-problem-
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Happy Day.....!
I am so happy today!!!!
Cuz lunch appointment = success!!!
Hehe see?? I am so easily satisfied! Wat's so difficult to make me happy you tell me?
Just drive about 15km from your office to my office, bring me out for lunch, buy me lunch and the coke McD cup, and then fetch me back to office, THEN drive another 15km back to your office. All within 1-2 hours.
So hard mehhh????
Lol.....I am a terrible girlfriend.
Gosh, feel so han fuk to have a bf that takes the trouble to come find me for lunch even though he is busy like shit. Yee....sometimes I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
Huggies to the boyfriend!!!!!
-big smiles-
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Lunch Date Cancelled
Today was supposed to be a lunch date with me and the boyfriend, but unfortunately because I was in a meeting, I didn't bring my phone, so naturally I didn't answer his call, thus making him didn't come because he didn't get any confirmation from me.
And I thought it was confirmed yesterday? =_=
Anywayz, was kinda dissapointed he didn't come but oh well, been kinda whiney these days so aiyah forget it lah. Tired of getting upset already. Lol. He says he is coming tomorrow though. Hopefully it happens......with him something always crops up one.
Today at work has been a little interesting. Had meeting with the boss and yeah, manage to give him some feedback and base on what he said its like we kinda have a free will to give suggestions to him on how to bring in numbers. This I like, cuz then at least I can be heard ^^
Looking at this years intake is really daunting and scary, don't know if we can get bonus or not also. Can only dream of promotion now, but it will not be a reality? Keke, who knows. But I dun expect it for sure.
Only God can promote me now, and no one else. So if its meant for me to stay this low, I guess I gotta wait it out and stay low lor.......
-bummer-
And I thought it was confirmed yesterday? =_=
Anywayz, was kinda dissapointed he didn't come but oh well, been kinda whiney these days so aiyah forget it lah. Tired of getting upset already. Lol. He says he is coming tomorrow though. Hopefully it happens......with him something always crops up one.
Today at work has been a little interesting. Had meeting with the boss and yeah, manage to give him some feedback and base on what he said its like we kinda have a free will to give suggestions to him on how to bring in numbers. This I like, cuz then at least I can be heard ^^
Looking at this years intake is really daunting and scary, don't know if we can get bonus or not also. Can only dream of promotion now, but it will not be a reality? Keke, who knows. But I dun expect it for sure.
Only God can promote me now, and no one else. So if its meant for me to stay this low, I guess I gotta wait it out and stay low lor.......
-bummer-
Friday, May 27, 2011
No Rant's Today
Hmm, nothing much to complain today.......cuz I complained already yesterday? And this morning? LOL
Spending like nobody's business lately and sadly to say, my spending is not that all fantastic neither. =P Today went out with Ian and Nini to buy some stuff for work and because of the amount spent, we were eligible to buy some items at a discounted price. What attracted me most was the ceramic knife and also the ceramic peeler and it costs RM50 now, and the guy threw in a small knife and a scissors.
Apparently the guy said it's from UK, but when I looked at the back of the packaging being scribbled off was a sign written "Made in China". Really what the hell?! Too bad I already made the purchase. Oh well, if it isn't good then just too bad and throw it away? =(
See what I mean that I am not being good with my expenses?!
Thank goodness my pay is already in.....
Looking at the amount makes me happy......
But then the boyfriend is going to buy his Mac Air soon.....and yes, sponsoring half of the amount for the gadget........
Bummer, there goes the money again!!
I am thinking should I save money so that I can go HK next year? But with all these expenditures it seems like heck kinda far away dream........
SOBS............I WANT MORE MONEY!! BOSS!! KASI GAJI NAIK BOLEH KA??
-slowly drying-
Spending like nobody's business lately and sadly to say, my spending is not that all fantastic neither. =P Today went out with Ian and Nini to buy some stuff for work and because of the amount spent, we were eligible to buy some items at a discounted price. What attracted me most was the ceramic knife and also the ceramic peeler and it costs RM50 now, and the guy threw in a small knife and a scissors.
Apparently the guy said it's from UK, but when I looked at the back of the packaging being scribbled off was a sign written "Made in China". Really what the hell?! Too bad I already made the purchase. Oh well, if it isn't good then just too bad and throw it away? =(
See what I mean that I am not being good with my expenses?!
Thank goodness my pay is already in.....
Looking at the amount makes me happy......
But then the boyfriend is going to buy his Mac Air soon.....and yes, sponsoring half of the amount for the gadget........
Bummer, there goes the money again!!
I am thinking should I save money so that I can go HK next year? But with all these expenditures it seems like heck kinda far away dream........
SOBS............I WANT MORE MONEY!! BOSS!! KASI GAJI NAIK BOLEH KA??
-slowly drying-
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I need to stop complaining
I really feel like my mouth is the worst mouth one could ever have........when provoked =P
I mean, I can be this really mean person, talk and talk, more like critise and comment, often being so judgemental, scrutinizing everything people say or do, and yak, yak, yak, all the bad comments coming out non-stop.
I am also a very expressive person? Like when I am angry it shows all over the face and I become this over exaggerating person, and unfortunately I do this not to the person I am angry with but to the person I am explaining to. What an irony, maybe I should re-direct my anger to the correct person.....=X
Often than not whenever I start talking about a person, then later on I would realize I could be wrong, and feel guilty afterwards. Sometimes I can be right, but feel guilty afterwards cuz I critized someone. Shucks, can I be not screwed up??
I think the best way to reduce this is maybe rant here and shut-up when I meet people. Then I won't provoke people to anger and save myself the guilt. I dunno, sometimes I just feel the need to tell, talk about it, let it out,......but then I feel guilty afterwards.
Haiyah, I am such a confused nut and yet my boyfriend still loves me.
Aww.....huggies I love him too *when he doesn't annoy me =p*
-guilty-
I mean, I can be this really mean person, talk and talk, more like critise and comment, often being so judgemental, scrutinizing everything people say or do, and yak, yak, yak, all the bad comments coming out non-stop.
I am also a very expressive person? Like when I am angry it shows all over the face and I become this over exaggerating person, and unfortunately I do this not to the person I am angry with but to the person I am explaining to. What an irony, maybe I should re-direct my anger to the correct person.....=X
Often than not whenever I start talking about a person, then later on I would realize I could be wrong, and feel guilty afterwards. Sometimes I can be right, but feel guilty afterwards cuz I critized someone. Shucks, can I be not screwed up??
I think the best way to reduce this is maybe rant here and shut-up when I meet people. Then I won't provoke people to anger and save myself the guilt. I dunno, sometimes I just feel the need to tell, talk about it, let it out,......but then I feel guilty afterwards.
Haiyah, I am such a confused nut and yet my boyfriend still loves me.
Aww.....huggies I love him too *when he doesn't annoy me =p*
-guilty-
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Blogger Failed Moment again.....
Guess what?
I forgot the password to this blog again =.=
I can't help it, I am getting old, sleepy, tired, lack of memory,....I think my RAM storage space has been totally wiped out. Storing too much nonsence in the brain already. LOL!! I think I need to log in more often so that I can remember my password....*bummer*
The boyfriend has been complaining about my sleepiness in the morning today. He keeps asking the same question over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over again saying "Why are you always so moodless in the morning?"
And I have to repeat over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over and over AND over again that "I am not a morning person!". SERIOUSLY, I am not the person to talk to in the morning. Imagine having sit in the jam for 1 hour before arriving to office and then having someone call you and ask you freaking a lot of questions.......
My mind will blow!!!!!!! Feel like giving him this face......
Sorry I am just so very aggitated when I wake up in the morning. You can talk to me, tell me stuff but never, I repeat NEVER do the following:
1) ASK me questions like 'What are you going to do today?" or ask me "What did you do last night?".....Eargh!!!
2) Tell me negative stuff that I need to handle later like "Have you done this?" or tell me "You better go do this later..."yada, yada......
3) Don't nag or take the oppertunity to tell me something bad about my attitude. Trust me, it WILL NOT REGISTER IN MY BRAIN.
See here is the situation.......
Whenever I come into office, I just step in not long the phone call from the boyfriend will come. I never get the chance to settle down, unpack my stuff, on my pc first to show that I HAVE ARRIVED TO MY BOSSES (sheesh), and prepare my breakfast.
Talking to the boyfriend then takes like 20 minutes? Talking is fine but he starts asking questions like "what are you going to do today?" or asks me "why are you so sleepy?" and ask me "why you always so moody in the morning?" just you know, just.....makes my day! Then usually I kinda end up getting frustrated and go on to eat my breakfast and I will start work at 9.30am / 10am much to the dislike of my bosses........
Heck, everyone is not happy with me in the morning!!!!!
I don't want to work already lah!!!!!
Contemplating of being a sampah masyarakat already!!!!
SEE!! ITS A CHAIN OF REACTION!!! Being mang- chang in the morning would result in a moody me half the day.
Aiyah just wanting to rant lah! Cuz kenot tahan........
Every morning also so sleepy,
Then go through jam like crazy,
Go to work to get crazy,
And everyday being accused of lazy
(SEE I EVEN RHYME!! Zzzzz)
-blah-
I forgot the password to this blog again =.=
I can't help it, I am getting old, sleepy, tired, lack of memory,....I think my RAM storage space has been totally wiped out. Storing too much nonsence in the brain already. LOL!! I think I need to log in more often so that I can remember my password....*bummer*
The boyfriend has been complaining about my sleepiness in the morning today. He keeps asking the same question over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over again saying "Why are you always so moodless in the morning?"
And I have to repeat over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over and over AND over again that "I am not a morning person!". SERIOUSLY, I am not the person to talk to in the morning. Imagine having sit in the jam for 1 hour before arriving to office and then having someone call you and ask you freaking a lot of questions.......
My mind will blow!!!!!!! Feel like giving him this face......
Sorry I am just so very aggitated when I wake up in the morning. You can talk to me, tell me stuff but never, I repeat NEVER do the following:
1) ASK me questions like 'What are you going to do today?" or ask me "What did you do last night?".....Eargh!!!
2) Tell me negative stuff that I need to handle later like "Have you done this?" or tell me "You better go do this later..."yada, yada......
3) Don't nag or take the oppertunity to tell me something bad about my attitude. Trust me, it WILL NOT REGISTER IN MY BRAIN.
See here is the situation.......
Whenever I come into office, I just step in not long the phone call from the boyfriend will come. I never get the chance to settle down, unpack my stuff, on my pc first to show that I HAVE ARRIVED TO MY BOSSES (sheesh), and prepare my breakfast.
Talking to the boyfriend then takes like 20 minutes? Talking is fine but he starts asking questions like "what are you going to do today?" or asks me "why are you so sleepy?" and ask me "why you always so moody in the morning?" just you know, just.....makes my day! Then usually I kinda end up getting frustrated and go on to eat my breakfast and I will start work at 9.30am / 10am much to the dislike of my bosses........
Heck, everyone is not happy with me in the morning!!!!!
I don't want to work already lah!!!!!
Contemplating of being a sampah masyarakat already!!!!
SEE!! ITS A CHAIN OF REACTION!!! Being mang- chang in the morning would result in a moody me half the day.
Aiyah just wanting to rant lah! Cuz kenot tahan........
Every morning also so sleepy,
Then go through jam like crazy,
Go to work to get crazy,
And everyday being accused of lazy
(SEE I EVEN RHYME!! Zzzzz)
-blah-
Monday, May 23, 2011
Really, I can have the award of being the most lazy blogger in the world
Or Maybe, the most unmotivated blogger in the world?
It's quite unbelievable that I cannot even remember my gmail account and even the blogsite address. Fantastic, my boyfriend is going to give me an award on top of all the other 'fantastic' awards he has given me.......ciss.......
Looking back at all my post I cannot believe that I would be soooooo kiddish in me words. Seriously, who talks like that?? HELLO??? *looks away in denial* but yeah, I did, and I can't believe my boyfriend aka Pika actually entertained me all these while. Imagine the agony? I mean, I get irritated with girls who walk like cutesy and all and here I am being a hyprocrite acting like one on my blog?! I dunno, I suddenly feel disgusted at the way I blogged when I read back the posts. Maybe I am just pms-ing. Swt, I think I am more confused.
And who came up with the nickname PIKA?! *looks away in denial again*.......sounds like pikachu. Which is one character I did not get acquainted with let alone stand the sound of that yellow thingy saying 'Pika, pika, pikachuuuuuu'!!!.....okla, it can be cute but then my boyfriend doesn't say things like that!!
Maybe I should refer him to things that I am familiar and obviously like......maybe, snoopy? Hello Kitty? (Wakakaka) Doreamon? Tofu? Pucca? (ok, pucca is a girl =.=)...or lets call him, Charlie Brown??? Or just mention his name? But what about privacy issues? Crap, confused again.......
UPDATE ON CURRENT STATE SINCE LIKE FOREVER
Anyway, lets just call him 'The Boyfriend' is getting sick quite often lately, and usual symptoms are vomitting, headache, tired, fever,.......horny? Haha kidding on the last part. But anyhow, he seems to be getting sick when we are out.
Like yesterday, la, la, la happy in Sunway Pyramid and then suddenly he feels feverish and cold. Despite sleeping in whole day yesterday, which usually he should be energetic the next day. Then later in the night he told me he puked out everything he ate (shit, which means all the fat from the food gone. mine's already processed and stored!!) and today, MC.
Seriously potong stim leh. I know, I should be the concerned, caring girlfriend but heck nowadays we can't even spend a decent whole day doing something nice, enjoyable, and relaxing minus the sleep in between! Most of the time yes, he might be free the whole day but somehow we would head back and take a nap which usually safe to say can take up 3-4 hours and like ugh, precious 'walking in the mall' time wasted. Or even if he spends time with me, suddenly he either says he is sick or he is tired, wanna rest more.
Sigh, seriously contemplating on just leaving him at home and I go out to the mall myself. Not to say I purposely want to show temper (actually I am) but if he needs more rest and I need more retail therapy, then maybe we should do things on our own? Though this is not what I want but he is getting sick too often already. Potong-ing my stim quite a lot =P
Okla, I am just being mean.......
To The Boyfriend......I love you to bits. Just wish we can spend more time together, NOT COUNTING CHURCH TIME CUZ THAT IS JUST DINNER!! But you know, like how we use to take our saturdays to do something nice together, at the mall, or going somewhere to visit, that sort of thing? I miss that. Nowadays it's either housework, gym, or sleep during the weekend. Where has all the fun gone to? Even though you might wanna please me, do it cuz u wanna, and have the energy to do it. Otherwise, we shall just stick to the routine lo......wat to do......haih....=P
Get well soon.......
Please dun get sick so often.......
And try not to sleep so much?? Take goood care of your body ah........
I am obviously getting old. Being so crappy and naggy at the same time. Sheesh.......
-peace out-
It's quite unbelievable that I cannot even remember my gmail account and even the blogsite address. Fantastic, my boyfriend is going to give me an award on top of all the other 'fantastic' awards he has given me.......ciss.......
Looking back at all my post I cannot believe that I would be soooooo kiddish in me words. Seriously, who talks like that?? HELLO??? *looks away in denial* but yeah, I did, and I can't believe my boyfriend aka Pika actually entertained me all these while. Imagine the agony? I mean, I get irritated with girls who walk like cutesy and all and here I am being a hyprocrite acting like one on my blog?! I dunno, I suddenly feel disgusted at the way I blogged when I read back the posts. Maybe I am just pms-ing. Swt, I think I am more confused.
And who came up with the nickname PIKA?! *looks away in denial again*.......sounds like pikachu. Which is one character I did not get acquainted with let alone stand the sound of that yellow thingy saying 'Pika, pika, pikachuuuuuu'!!!.....okla, it can be cute but then my boyfriend doesn't say things like that!!
Maybe I should refer him to things that I am familiar and obviously like......maybe, snoopy? Hello Kitty? (Wakakaka) Doreamon? Tofu? Pucca? (ok, pucca is a girl =.=)...or lets call him, Charlie Brown??? Or just mention his name? But what about privacy issues? Crap, confused again.......
UPDATE ON CURRENT STATE SINCE LIKE FOREVER
Anyway, lets just call him 'The Boyfriend' is getting sick quite often lately, and usual symptoms are vomitting, headache, tired, fever,.......horny? Haha kidding on the last part. But anyhow, he seems to be getting sick when we are out.
Like yesterday, la, la, la happy in Sunway Pyramid and then suddenly he feels feverish and cold. Despite sleeping in whole day yesterday, which usually he should be energetic the next day. Then later in the night he told me he puked out everything he ate (shit, which means all the fat from the food gone. mine's already processed and stored!!) and today, MC.
Seriously potong stim leh. I know, I should be the concerned, caring girlfriend but heck nowadays we can't even spend a decent whole day doing something nice, enjoyable, and relaxing minus the sleep in between! Most of the time yes, he might be free the whole day but somehow we would head back and take a nap which usually safe to say can take up 3-4 hours and like ugh, precious 'walking in the mall' time wasted. Or even if he spends time with me, suddenly he either says he is sick or he is tired, wanna rest more.
Sigh, seriously contemplating on just leaving him at home and I go out to the mall myself. Not to say I purposely want to show temper (actually I am) but if he needs more rest and I need more retail therapy, then maybe we should do things on our own? Though this is not what I want but he is getting sick too often already. Potong-ing my stim quite a lot =P
Okla, I am just being mean.......
To The Boyfriend......I love you to bits. Just wish we can spend more time together, NOT COUNTING CHURCH TIME CUZ THAT IS JUST DINNER!! But you know, like how we use to take our saturdays to do something nice together, at the mall, or going somewhere to visit, that sort of thing? I miss that. Nowadays it's either housework, gym, or sleep during the weekend. Where has all the fun gone to? Even though you might wanna please me, do it cuz u wanna, and have the energy to do it. Otherwise, we shall just stick to the routine lo......wat to do......haih....=P
Get well soon.......
Please dun get sick so often.......
And try not to sleep so much?? Take goood care of your body ah........
I am obviously getting old. Being so crappy and naggy at the same time. Sheesh.......
-peace out-
Monday, August 2, 2010
The Dress Has Arrived
Pika, the dress just came at about 12.40PM.......
Looking at it now.........
Oh well, kinda dissapointed le Pika.......
Got holes in the dress some more.......
RM37 BURNED........T_T............
Pika, lets go to 1U and buy the dress at Miss Selfridge lo......
Sigh..........
-dissapointed-
Looking at it now.........
Oh well, kinda dissapointed le Pika.......
Got holes in the dress some more.......
RM37 BURNED........T_T............
Pika, lets go to 1U and buy the dress at Miss Selfridge lo......
Sigh..........
-dissapointed-
Friday, July 30, 2010
Dress is coming~!!
Pika!
The dress is coming in 2 days time!
The person said it would arrive on monday wor.....
*Fingers crossed*
Shucks anxious la!!!
Btw cost me RM37 plus postage cos I tumpang Nini to buy......
Oh, oh, its coming on monday~!
What if it doesn't loook nice?!!
-wonders-
The dress is coming in 2 days time!
The person said it would arrive on monday wor.....
*Fingers crossed*
Shucks anxious la!!!
Btw cost me RM37 plus postage cos I tumpang Nini to buy......
Oh, oh, its coming on monday~!
What if it doesn't loook nice?!!
-wonders-
Thursday, July 29, 2010
The Risk I Was Willing to Take
Pika.......... 
In my conquest to find a long dress.......
And well, basically would like to have it for the Bali trip......
I have taken a risk, one I consider quite nerve wrecking considering I have not seen it before.....
I actually went and bought this.......
What do you think Pika? Is it nice?
It will cost me RM35, and its from an online boutique. I sure hope the quality is fine and the dress would turn out to be like the picture. Otherwise, it's gonna be a total bummer!
Furthermore not actually trying out the dress I am quite concerned if I would look fat in it. I have a dress which is almost like this one but shorter, and I look okie la. So crossing my fingers on this dress.
It should come in around next tue/wed.
Pika, oh Pika, what do you think of the dress??
(sigh, I might not get a reply from Pika. Alwaz got so much stuff to do. Bz fella. =_=)
-anxious-
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Bali Trip Seems so Far Away
Piiiikkkaaaaaaaa...................................................
Why does the trip to Bali seem so far away??? My neck is getting longer waiting for it to come. I seriously can't wait to take a break.
After of which I would have to wait for public holidays in order to actually take a break T___T
Speaking of Bali, today after lunch while heading off to buy fruits I saw a long maxi dress which wasn't too long for me and it is kinda colorful. Seriously matches the Bali dinner theme. Haha! But main point is I am buying it cos I want a long maxi dress la. Its priced at RM160+, and I am thinking might as well I get my maxi dress from Miss Selfridge or something right? Only cost RM120+. But Lara said it comes with a belt. So we shall see and try, try tomorrow. Hehehe.
Btw so random, I was actually thinking, what if you also dress up together?
Hahaha make you wear the Mc'Donalds uniform kinda shirt......
Or, or you can wear this!!!
Lol we will so be the topic of conversation after the dinner!
Heck, we will definitely be remembered!! =P
So darling, are you game?
-keke-
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Randomness
Yesterday morning Pika said he would dicipline me and make me sleep early.
Hehe, who thinks he will succeed??? =P
Pika oh Pika, you love me too much la. Tht's why I manja and get away scott free! Hehe.
Love you, Muacks!
*************************************
Anyway this is just so random, I saw this mosquito resting nicely on the decorative umbrella I put on my monitor screen.
Can you see the size of that thing?????
Its so gigantic you feel like it can suck a whole lotta blood out of you! And it looks like a Aedes mosquito that can inflict Dengue desease.
The mosquitos here are so hungry they just don't give up once they find 'fresh meat'
Sigh, I feel like we are victims to these blood sucking insects here.
-victim-
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Today, we sorted our issues
So yesterday night was............
OKIE LAH...........lolx
Obviously we must have improved otherwise I would just packed my bags and go home le. Otherwise we would have another case of grumpy old man today (hints to Pika). Hehe. But then again, yesterday was a more rested night for him la. But he seems kinda sleepy this morning. Maybe he will be grumpy today also. Hmm........
Anyway, as a result of bad sleep the day before, Pika became even more grumpy yesterday. Making me upset. Cos he starts getting aggitated on stuff which is not really that a big issue and showing a bit of temper.
Me no likes =(
Anyway towards the end of the day he improved his mood after a little jogging. I always think that exercising helps to relax a person as well. ^^
So anyway, after much digression, I slept on the outer side of the bed while he slept inside the bed where most of his body will be on the plank. Lol. He didn't need the blanket yesterday and so no issues on blanket.
Since he put extra blanket on the plank and was sleeping on it, I had more space and thus when he moves he didn't wake me up. And furthermore he didn't wake up during the night to pee pee or drink water so he didn't disturb me there too.
Only thing that was a problem was..........I woke up a few times at night and he snored so I couldn't get back to sleep immediately.
Oh well, this is unavoidable and thus I must learn to accept it I guess.
Now, I am so sleepy, I seriously need more sleep. Sob, sob, sigh, sigh..........
-yawnz-
OKIE LAH...........lolx
Obviously we must have improved otherwise I would just packed my bags and go home le. Otherwise we would have another case of grumpy old man today (hints to Pika). Hehe. But then again, yesterday was a more rested night for him la. But he seems kinda sleepy this morning. Maybe he will be grumpy today also. Hmm........
Anyway, as a result of bad sleep the day before, Pika became even more grumpy yesterday. Making me upset. Cos he starts getting aggitated on stuff which is not really that a big issue and showing a bit of temper.
Me no likes =(
Anyway towards the end of the day he improved his mood after a little jogging. I always think that exercising helps to relax a person as well. ^^
So anyway, after much digression, I slept on the outer side of the bed while he slept inside the bed where most of his body will be on the plank. Lol. He didn't need the blanket yesterday and so no issues on blanket.
Since he put extra blanket on the plank and was sleeping on it, I had more space and thus when he moves he didn't wake me up. And furthermore he didn't wake up during the night to pee pee or drink water so he didn't disturb me there too.
Only thing that was a problem was..........I woke up a few times at night and he snored so I couldn't get back to sleep immediately.
Oh well, this is unavoidable and thus I must learn to accept it I guess.
Now, I am so sleepy, I seriously need more sleep. Sob, sob, sigh, sigh..........
-yawnz-
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